YES!!! My bro is married!!!!

30th May... A day to remember. My brother who's 27 is officially married to my sis in law, Charmaine. :D I still remember the day that they first met. And how they as a couple has impacted me in one way or another...

Let's talk about Charmaine first. Initially, i didn't know how to "communicate" with her. I think it's also because of my background and all. I still remember the first time we met, we went for a hair cut together. We wanted to have some bonding time together. After the hair cut we went to have lunch (or dinner... cannot really remember the details though) and she bought pig organ soup. Haha... Funny rite? I thought maybe she didn't know i don't eat pork or something, so i didn't mind, but when we started having a conversation about aunty (char's mom) not eating pork also then she remembered i don't eat them too... lol It's really funny thinking back now...

To cut the long story short, i really tried my best to "relate" to her in many ways, and i know she's trying too, talking about things that i'll be interested in. I'm thankful, that she has the heart to want to know me better. :)

To me, charmaine is really special. I won't say we r VERY VERY close, but from what i observe and what kor write about her in his blog, i'm thankful. Because of mom and all, i know that there's this "emptiness" in us. And Charmaine is able to fill up this "emptiness" in kor. By encouraging him and loving him. Seeing him as who he is and accepts him.

I thank God for Charmaine, and i look forward to the times we spend together as a family now my 大嫂! :)

Than lets talk about my dear kor kor now... He has always been my support, someone whom i can depend on and talk serious stuff as well as rubbish with. I enjoy the times spent with him. I still remember those times that i'll be in his room, he'll be doing his work n i'll be doing mine, though many times i complaint that he doesn't talk to me and i'm the one always initiating it, but i'm still thankful that he is there...

When he first shifted out, i was really not used to it. Suddenly i had no one to talk to at home... It saddens me, but looking back now, i know God made used of this time for me to grow. Through their years of courtship, i guess it was a period for me to learn how to let go and grow up.

So what's my after thoughts? Haha... frankly speaking, i don't know... I'm just full of thanks giving and praise. We will see how ba... Both of them r on their honey moon now. So when they come back there will be more updates! :)

Let's take a look at more photos now... :D


This is my beloved CG mates. :) It's funny how i went around catching up with alot of ppl during my bro's wedding... It's a lot of fun too. Happy to see those whom i've not met for a long long time too...


The lovely WEB ladies!


My lovely jie meis... Pretty rite? Rongma and Faye Jie


Me and the girlys! :)


Haha... Kel Choo (someone whom i used to call 大舅)


Another couple who is very special and dear to me... thank you for everything! :)


This is Euphe! Haha my design buddy whom i can talk about the industry with...


This is tim and guoren... the guys that i went on my first mission trip with. :)


This is my mei mei Eunice! We should meet up soon n catch up too!


This is Guan Hua and Sharon and her bf.


Willie! Hahahaha... A very dear brother too... Jia you jia you in all that u do. Don't tire urself too much also.


This is ami! My lovely lady boss while i was an intern at her place. :)


Such a pretty cake rite!!!

And last but not least my kor and charmaine!!!


So to end of this post, here's a song that me and Charlene (charmaine's sis) wrote together for the couple. We don't have a demo yet, but it's on it's way... Hope u'll be blessed by the lyrics...


Our Father's Perfect Plan

G D
When the boy was just an old teen(8)
G D

The Lord reached out to save him,(7)
G D

God's gentle love unveiled his eyes(8)
C A
And soon he realised(6)

G D
The Lord has a good plan for him (8)
G D
Though there's trials all around (7)
G D
In God's will he surrenders all (8)
C A
Christ the Lord is pleased with him (7)

Chorus

D A
We ask of you dear Father (7)
G D
To be their strength’s supply (6)
G D
In obedience, eternally (8)
G A
May their life’s praise edify (7)

D A
Dear Papa Lord, let them love you (8)
G D
And in Your love abide (6)
G D
To build a happy Family (8)
G D
Lord Jesus, be their guide (6)

Verse 2
G D
Then one day she was praying, (7)
G D

"Dear God please lead in my life" (7)
G D
She learns to love through God's eyes (8)
C A
And soon she realised (6)

G D
That God can be her lover (7)
G D
And in His perfect plan for her (7)
G D
The boy who chased God’s heart with her (8)
C A
Has softly plunged in love (6)

Chorus 2

D A

A lovely bride so sweet and pure,(8)
G D
To love and cherish forever more(8)
G D
In prayer he thanks Thee joyfully(8)
G A
He praises God for her(6)

D A

A groom in shining armour bright(8)
G D
To be her pillar and strong support(8)
G D
She'll trust Your plan and rest in peace(8)
G A
She'll love God's masterpiece(6)

D A
We ask of you dear Father (7)
G D
To be their strength’s supply (6)
G D
In obedience, eternally (8)
G A
May their life’s praise edify (7)

D A
Dear Papa Lord, let them love You (8)
G D
And in Your love abide (6)
G D
To build a happy Family (8)
G D
Lord Jesus, be their guide (6)

End
G D
May You bless and love them more and more (9)
G D
Let them testify Your love (7)



That's all! Have a blessed week ahead! :D

I Never Knew...

I never knew that i'll miss your bubbly nature,
I never knew that i'll miss your hearty laughter,
I never knew that i'll miss your nosy wonder,
I never knew that i'll miss your naggy lecture.

How i wish i could turn back time,
To a place where i can show my gratitude towards you.
How i wish i could stop the clock,
And cherish the moments that we spent together.
How i wish i could look into your eyes,
And not show a single sign of sorrow.
How i wish i could sincerely say,
Mommy, I really love you.

I never knew how to cherish you
I never knew how to respect you
I never knew how to say i'm sorry
I never knew that i'll regret all that i do...

It's been 4 years plus since mom fell and became ill. It took me great courage to write this entry. For the past 4 years, i'm usually touchy whenever "mothers" are the topic. I haven't been able to talk to anyone properly about how i felt for the past 4 years, because it hurts... and it hurts real bad.

So y am i doing it now? Well, recently, i've attended the women's breakthru weekend organised by my church. To cut the long story short, i've met God during the camp and one of the many issues that i have to deal with is regarding my mom.

Actually, i don't think alot of you know. My mom fell 4 years plus ago and had a brain haemorrhage causing her to have a stroke and therefore, she's immoble and she's not able to talk and eat due to the tube she has in her throat and her stomach. She fell when i was half way going through my first year in NAFA. I was 17 then...

Mommy was the pillar of support in the family. Only thing was we didn't knew till the time she became ill. When she fell, alot of things at home changed. (I won't go into details) All in all, i didn't have a female figure at home whom i can consult with and life wasn't easy for me.

My relationship with my mom is just like any typical mother and daughter. We do our shopping together, we talk about boys and even quarrel at times. I wouldn't say that we r not close, but it's true that my bro and my mom r closer. But she's always the one to accompany me to the hospital for my checkups, pray for me and took care of me when ever i'm down with a fever and stuff. And i'm really happy and thankful for that. Apart from all the house chores, she works too. She was a kindergarden supervisor.

Ever since mom fell, she's missed out on alot of things. She wasn't there or rather she cannot be there for my 18th and 21st birthday. (If u ask what's my birthday wish, it will definately be for her to be healthy again.) She missed out on my first internship, my convocation (i didn't knew that my secondary school graduation will be her last), my first bone marrow test without sedation, my 2nd admission to the hospital, etc...

I don't know if u guys will understand how i feel. But my mom, she's alive. But to me, she seems as though she's suffering... I am thankful that God has sustain her thus far, but to go into her bed room everyday to greet her is something that hurts me everyday. She can't respond well to the things i say. I only share happy things with her, bcos i don't want to add on to her burdens and her pain. Many times when i say bye bye to her because i'm leaving, she'll cry. I don't know what she's thinking and i don't know what she wants.

There were so many times when i asked God, why, why me? and why my mom? i never got the answer... so i thought it'll be good if i could just bury the sorrow and pain deep down inside my heart and try not to touch it.

But during breakthru, God spoke to me.
Through Isaiah 55
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.

13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."

I am reminded that the past 4 year plus that mom was ill wasn't wasted. The time that past by isn't wasted. Though through this 4 years, because of the emptiness that i felt has lead me astray away from God, but He spoke to me and reminded me that He is faithful. All i had to do is to trust Him. These were the take home verse that God gave me during the breakthru weekend...

Hosea 2:14-15
"Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her. And there I will give her her vineyards and make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. And there she shall answer as in the days of her youth, as at the time when she came out of the land of Egypt."

God has promised me hope, He promised that i'll be able to be joyful like i was when mom was well. Together we can rejoice together. I'm waiting for that time to come. And when it does, i know that Mom and I will be such a powerful testimony that we can reach out to more ppl and share more with our love ones the love that God can give, the hope and the promises that God has for everyone.

Mother's Day is coming. I know that i won't be feeling as sad as i was before. I know i don't have to force myself to smile anymore. Because i have faith in Christ who strengthens me. From deep within, my comfort comes from my Lord.

Mommy, i wanna say, Thank you. Thank you for all that you've done... Though u won't be able to see my blog entry, but i'll tell u face to face. I love you. From now on, you can depend on me and trust in God. I know His timing is perfect, that His desire for us is more wonderful than we can imagine. Let's continue to pray and surrender to Him. I'm looking forward to the day when u can say "Amen" together with me in an audible voice. I thank God for you. There's no one that can replace u mommy... :)

Wanna wish you a happy mother's day. And get well soon... :)

Starting on the 28th April i'll be officially BUSY for the next month or so, cos i'll be working... :) Can't tell u guys much now, but i will next time...

anyway i'm really happy that through a link, i was able to find Ning Kam's rendition of amazing grace, so i thought i'll be able to share it with u guys... here it is. Hope u'll be blessed by it as much as i did... :)



Have a blessed month ahead! i may not be able to update my blog as frequently as i want to... :D But i'll miss u all!!!

I've been a fan of japanese dramas and movies for a very long time, and i'm such a fan that no matter if it's a stupid show or not i will still watch it. But recently i've watched the BEST japanese movie ever (though i believe there will be more in the future). But seriously speaking I LOVE THIS SHOW! It's called 252 Signal of Life. There's no cool characters or what so ever, but i would say that the plot kept me engaged in the entire movie. Though the movie is a little long, but i couldn't feel it. :) What is the story about? Well, i don't wanna spoil the show for you, so i'll just give u a short summary of it...


(credits http://encorefilms.com/252/)

The Plot
A few weeks after a gigantic earthquake struck Tokyo. Metropolitan Tokyo is slowly beginning to function again. But the temperature of the Pacific Ocean suddenly increases after the earthquake, causing a tremendous typhoon. The largest typhoon ever in Japan heads towards Tokyo with devastating force. The tidal wave generated by the typhoon covers the coastal city area with water. The Tokyo Fire Department dispatches its elite rescue unit, Hyper Rescue, and their sonar picks up a signal from underwater. Beneath the ground, in one devastated subway station, there is someone sending out a code which is known to rescuers only…

“252… 252…” – “We have survivors!”

"252" is the rescue code that means "There are survivors." Somebody who knows the rescue protocol is trapped underground! The rescuers, the survivors and their families all pray for their loved ones' safe return. In the extreme situation, a rescue party tries to save the survivors at the risk of their own lives. In the face of death, a daring rescue operation is to be carried out, intersecting with many dramas of family, love, pride, and human life…

The movie depicts the endeavors of humans in the extreme conditions in the aftermath of a disaster. Another focus of the movie is the Hyper Rescue, the fire department's special rescue unit. This is the first movie ever to depict the specialists in action. For authenticity, the Tokyo Fire Department 8th Division Hyper Rescue Unit helped in the principal photography. With their cooperation, the movie features realistic and detailed rescue operations. For the Tokyo flood sequence, exterior sets of a train terminal and subway station were constructed. Tremendous amounts of water were poured onto the sets to create a flash flood, achieving the horror of a flood that can't be depicted with the CG. CG was used in the scenes of tidal waves swallowing up the Tokyo bay area to actualize the awesome force of nature.

The movie started with a verse, if my memory didn't fail me it should be this...
"And God said, This is the token of the covenant which I make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth. And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud: And I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh. And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth. And God said unto Noah, This is the token of the covenant, which I have established between me and all flesh that is upon the earth." - Genesis 9:12-17

And just a few weeks ago i actually posted this on my blog too... Isn't it coincidental?

After the show, i was very much reminded of what a missionary in Japan told me, Japanese gets disheartened easily. Therefore they lost their confidence in God, they lose hope. I remember the year when the Tsunami hit, many lives were lost and many of us were questioning God WHY?!? Many lost hope... Even the recent Sichuan Earthquake, many natural disaster that hit different places throughout the years. It left many questions hanging... But then again, i still wanna let you guys know, God cares and He does love you. There are many questions that i don't know myself too, but that's what faith is anyways rite? :D

This movie set my mind thinking, not in the bad way, but in the good way... In the movie u see so many stories going on, your relationship with your family, brotherhood, kinship, love and choices. I've never felt so "intense" before while watching the movie... Till this day i'm still thinking and digesting the movie. maybe i'll share more on my after thoughts when i put my thinkings together.

Anyway here's the trailer hope u'll enjoy it... and seriously, this movie is a MUST WATCH!!!!! I highly recommend you to watch it... :)



and here's the link to the official website, in english and japanese. :) Have a blessed week ahead!!!

This is a song written by JJ Lin called Cries in a distance... i still remembered on the 2nd day that JJ released his sixology album, i was hospitalized bcos of the side effects of my clinical trial. It was a time that i spent in the hospital alone in pain and all, apart from God's word and worship songs, JJ's new album kept me company in the hospital. I was listening to this song again n again and it kinda spoke to me quite deeply. The song reminded me of the holocaust, for those of u who don't know what a holocaust is u can find the info here even though i myself don't know much about the holocaust, i did hear about it from different ones, esp in the show freedom writers.

anyway back to topic, so the lyrics reminded me of the holocaust, and one of the victim who faced holocaust was ann frank. she was a child that had to escape and hide inorder to survive. cries in a distance reminded me of her, it might be a sad song, but i think JJ was trying to deliver a message that is farther than just wars that are going around in this world and how children are affected and stuff...


here's his song, he doesn't have a mv for this song, but a friend of mine who is very talented edited this video... enjoy!

Cries In A Distance
music and lyrics：JJ Lin Jun Jie


Cries in a distance
Can't stop the tremble
I'm just awaiting my turn
Hiding will never
Save me forever
The guns gonna get me for sure

Dear God I pray why won't you be my friend
Come to me and take my hand
Like mama would say
Everything will be okay

All I hear is 3 2 1
The scream from the guns
And then 1 by 1
No one gets to run
Someone's dad or mom
Sister, brother and son
No... no...

All I feel is 1 2 3
My tears start to bleed
Smell of roses on my feet

I feel sore...
I fall...
I call...
I crawl...

I was doing my quiet time one night and i suddenly felt prompted to write some lyrics. And i ask the Lord, what should i write about? And i don't know y, God reminded me of this song that JJ wrote. So immediately i took out my handphone n jot down whatever lyrics that came to mind. And suprisingly, i wrote the lyrics in less then 5 mins... Here you go, hope it blesses you. :)

Trust in Me
music: JJ Lin lyrics: Dorothy

Though there's cries in a distance
You can't stop the tremble
You're not alone on this road
Hiding will never save you forever
But prayer will bring you hope

Dear child i say why won't you trust in me
Come to me and hold my hands
Like your mama will say everything will be okay

Cos my love for you is 321
That's more than enough
And than one by one
No one will get passed
Not your dad or mom, sister brother and friends
No... No...

On the day that I died 123
I rose from the dead
No more tears that will be shed

You're set free
You're happy
Trust in Me
I'm yours!

I actually passed a copy of this lyrics to JJ, hope he read it and will continue to write music like this to reach out to different ones. :) 加油！

Recently, i've fell in love with this song, but the thing is i don't really understand... so it'll be so nice if someone can help me translate...

anyway here it is, it's by LEAD. They are my favourite Jap group since i was in sec 2? That's a long time ago man... haha hope u guys will enjoy as much as i do. They've really really improved alot, in terms of vocals and all. Pls enjoy...



here's another song of them when they were like so much younger... haha hope u will enjoy this too... :)



after watching the videos, it made me realized something. I think dance routines evolves over the years. Like look at the steps for boy bands back in the late 90s and now... it's not even 10 years apart n they've changed so much. Well i guess nothing stays the same... haha but let me tell u something... God does. :)

Have a blessed week ahead!

This is going to be a really short post... well as the title said, weird stuff and indeed alot of weird stuff happened this month.

I don't think u'll believe me, but then again i still wanna tell u guys. my dad, he is aspiring to be a magician, so he has all kinds of props at home and i do mean ALL KINDS! From cards, to ropes, to bottles, cans, cups, balls, whatever u name it he has it... So recently he just bought a few white mice (fake of course) back to his collection and a toy gun. Well to me it's weird, cos normally you only see small boys buying toy guns back, but well he is my dad... And actually in his collection, there are like cockroaches too (fake again of course).

Can you imagine where ever u go u see those things laying around, it still freaks you out, and all along i've hate it. But let me tell u something good about having fake cockroaches around your house. it trains your "dan", well as most ppl would know, most girls or even guys are afraid of cockroaches. but recently, i've realised the sight of real roaches doesn't give me the creeps anymore. and just this week, i've killed 2. YES! I KILLED 2 ROACHES!!!! Not with insecticide but with my hands... I just rolled up any news paper n smacked it. I don't think my bro is capable of that, haha but than again i need to thank my dad for his "props" if not i wouldn't have dared to do it i'll just scream as usual n run out of my room or something...

So this is the first weird stuff that i wanna share about... what's the second? Well, in the month of april, i've already witness 4 accidents (as in car accidents). Can u imagine? How lucky can one get? I shan't further elaborate on the accidents, but i was just reflecting and i've realized i've witness 4 accidents. Yup so that's it... just some random topic to talk about.... :) Have a blessed week ahead!