Our day spent at Makansutra!!! 

Gideon and Clarice looks contented with their char kuay tiao...  

We digging in our satays...  

Bro and Tim...  

They looked satisfied with their food... hmm...  

My bro trying to capture some "artistic" pictures... 

StingRay!!!!!! 

DIG IN!!! 

Me and Clare feeding Gideon... haha... he looks kinda weird though, think he's enjoying he's stingray...  

stingray... yamyam...  

eating... 

Our satisfying meal... hehe :P 

Merissa and me 

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Us being silly...  

Finally got a quite good n nice picture... hai... :) 

Y wanna act tao?  

We really did enjoy ourselves... =P 

Yeah! Finally! Pictures in my blog too!!! Below are pictures of me and my friends. The first two r taken at Tim's place and the rest in church during the inside out baptism service...

God is faithful... Just came back from visiting the youth camp at sentosa. It was great! Attended the morning session and the night one. I am very blessed by it. I'm thankful that i even went in the first place.

This is something that i think it's great to share with everyone. My testimony of what happened on the last night of the camp. Hope this will encourage all my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ that their walk with Him will be based on one word "FAITH".

Yesterday when i went for the camp, i wasn't very interested in attending the sessions because the theme was based on BGR and purity. But i went ahead with it, missed out quite alot though, cos we were late. Arrived at sentosa around 11.45. After the first session, i was really bored. I guess the reason y i wanted to go in was to see all my friends again. And of course not wanting to miss out on anything that happened. We had lunch and played some games. It was lotsa fun. Themis entertained us too... with his 3000bc ago chinese dance, and his disciples too. We had lots of fun and laughter together. After that my grp gathered n we did our dance again. At that point i was really angry, cos Jan was giving us the attitude and everything, on top of that Tim wasn't in a very good mood. Guess whatever happened there did affect me in one way or another. Was feeling very moody n angry after that.

Help out during dinner time, than found out that i had no dinner cos the food the i bought was spoiled. Didn't have much to eat also. After that went up helped my bro with his worship. Most of the songs that he sang was new, therefore i didn't really enjoy bving for him. Than pastor daniel had he's session with us.

He's a real dynamic speaker i should say. He made me feel as though i'm back at synergize attending one of the sessions. He talked on Mark. The one about the paralytic and his friends. It was a great preeching. At that moment i thought that whatever that he covered on will touch most of the youths there. And i was right. He prayed for everyone and God started He's work with everyone.

At that point of time, i was really sad. I started crying and my heart ache so much that i find it hard to breathe. I was desparate. I was crying out to God to do something. It seems so long, until Andrew( the worship leader that pastor daniel brought) prayed for me. I can remember everything that he prayed. He said that he can sense that i'm a worshipper, a great worshipper of God, that i have a powerful testimony for God to use, someone who can testify for Him and bring lost soul back. And he knows that i'm struggling, that God has placed me in a deserted wildderness and i'm asking question why this n why that. And God wants to tell me that He's putting me there bcos he wants to promote me to another level, where i can praise Him and glorify His name.

But the thing was that when andrew said all those to me, my heart ached more. I was asking God how can i be a worshipper and bring ppl to u when i myself can't feel u? I'm angry with myself, i'm trying so hard and yet i can't feel God. The irony is that i know He is real, yet i can feel Him and believe. That made me more sad and angry. And when i was going through all that thoughts of unhappiness came into mind. It's as though telling me that God don't care for me anymore. I was so sad n tired. I stood there for i don't know how long, and no one else came and pray for me. I was sad, lonely, angry, confused, tired. I can't take it anymore. I told God i'm giving up. I don't wanna try anymore. I don't wanna believe. I don't wanna care.

Just at the moment when i told God that, someone smsed me. I know it's rude to sms during a service, but i didn't care anymore. So i checked who was it. To my horror, it was Wilton. A brother and a friend whom i can talk to very much, but didn't contact one another for long. A friend whom i shared Christ with. He msged me. And all he wrote was, "Believe in God. Dun ever lose faith". These were the exact words he used. I cried again. I was asking y God. I was asking y can't He just let me go. After that mark cheong prayed for me. I felt much better after that. But i was still feeling upset and angry.

The service ended, and a small voice inside my head was telling me that if i don't settle the problem with God tonight, i can't go home. So i went downstair where they r all having supper and looked for clarice. The moment when she set down beside me i cried. I was so glad i have a friend like her to lend me a shoulder to cry on when i'm so confused and sad. I started sharing with her how i felt and how tired i am. I was tearing while i shared and Tim and Guo Ren saw what happened. After a while Guo Ren and Tim came to us and suggested we go to the hall for another grp prayer and sharing session. We did.

When we were upstairs, Tim told us about he's dream and how Guo Ren interpreted it. He dreamt that he had a mission. And that mission is to go to a garden to gather 10 stalk of very rare flowers and deliever it to someone else. And while he was delivering the flowers, there was this guy who tried to snatch the flowers from him. So Guo Ren's interpretation was that the 10 flowers represent everyone in my grp. And that we were all very special to God, the one who tried to snatch the flowers from Tim was satan. So they go on sharing how they felt in the afternoon and that they were angry and bitter. Their WG prayed for them, and after that they felt better. Than Guo Ren told me that God's putting me in a place whereby He's testing me. And through that i'm gonner be a stronger person. Ask me not to be angry with God and have faith in Him. When i heard those words, i wanted to cry, but i held back my tears. I didn't really need to hear those, cos it wasn't something that answers my questions.

Than Gideon shared. He was feeling this emptiness inside him too. During the night session, no one prayed for him, only teck liang. He told Gideon that inside Him there was think God like shape that was once filled up, but now it's empty. At that point Gideon just cried out to God. Than he too cried. We all prayed for him. All except me. I didn't wanna utter stuff that i don't believe in, but i felt the immense pain that Gideon was feeling. Each one of us took turns to share after that. I didn't wanna share my problems, but in the end i did.

I told them exactly how i felt. I cry and i admitted that i wasn't who they see i am. I feel like such a hypocrite myself. I'm angry with myself for clinging onto all those things and i don't understand y God needs to put me in a place that i can't feel Him at all. They prayed for me. My bro prayed for me too. Asking God to show me what's love all about, in a way which i can accept. I guess that's what i really needed. After that Mark closed us with a passage from the bible. I felt so much better after that. Still, i can't feel God, but i know He's there, cos He has place God like friends around u to remind u who He is and that no matter what happen, whether or not u feel Him, He is there. Matt prayed for us too. And right now i'm not going to give up, i'm gonna continue to pursue God. For He is faithful and just.

No matter what happens He's always there, cos whatever bad things that comes to ur mind, know that it's from the evil one. Hide God's words in ur heart and together we can stand and fight together with the armour of God. AMEN!!!!!

My Team!!!  

My team!  

Tim me and Bro, supposedly to be the "Sng family" haha...  

Kyra, some of us look weird... haha but who cares...  

Copycats!!!