With a blink of our eyes n the end of the year is here again... Well, it's time for me to do some reflection too. Looking back at what happened this year really reminded me that i've been through lots of ups n downs n through all these i've grown quite abit myself.

Well, many things happened. Grandma's death, serene leaving (but she'll be coming back soon for a visit yeah!!! =P ), mom's sudden fall ( she's also better now... back home with us now. Gonna celebrate the new year with her n of course, my birthday too! ), my relapse... All in all i gotta thank God for all that's happened. If it weren't for this, i guess i wouldn't have figure out how good n powerful He is in our family's testimony.

I always wanted to write a testimony of my own... i guess i shall make use of this time to write it down.

Been a christian for the past 5 years. My family came to know the Lord when i was suddenly down with leukemia, in our midst of desperation, we found Him. We got baptise on 30march 2002. Since i've started this journey i've battled with my illness. Been through relapse and remission a couple of times now, changed from medication to injections to medications, go for blood test after blood test and of course bone marrow test too. It wasn't easy whenever i know i have a relapse n i have to go for another drug, it was never easy, not until this year.

Went into a period when i was really depress. Didn't know why i'm living on earth for... I'm already sick, but ppl around me seems to be gone too. The very last "tragic" news i could handle was when my mom fell. She at first went into a few days of coma, n we all thought we're gonna lose her. But thank God for His faithfullness, He has seen her through this time.

I struggled with God during those times. I was asking why n how come so many things can happen within a year. I never knew. I was numb... I struggled with Him. Told God that i couldn't handle anymore n i'm not as strong as how ppl see me. Till a point i couldn't feel Him or talk to Him anymore. I was depress. I wanted to die. Gradually, i stopped taking my medication. Everytime i went to the hospital my heart breaks. To see my mom laying on her bed motionless is something words can't describe. I was so blinded that i couldn't see God working through my mom. Doctors all said that she recovered speedily, but i just couldn't see it. To me, having to stay in a hospital for 6 months plus is a very long period. N during these period, there were complication coming up till a point whereby my family nearly had a nervous break down.

The point was i was pretty sick with all this, so i stopped taking my medication. Went through my mundane life. Went through the motion too. Attended church, but was spiritually died. Untill i went for generation camp.

Didn't sign up for it, but wanting to see my group of friends, i went to visit. Went for the last night's sermon. To cut the long story short, God didn't speak to me. But i confess to my leaders n friends, n lots of them prayed for me. Went through a very emotional night, bcos it was the first time in the year whereby i told everyone the truth. After that things started to go right...

Went for a trip, came back encounting God. Was so amazed by what He could do. Indeed, all things r possible for our God of wonders! Went to the hospital the next day, expecting a result from my doc n it was bad news. But funny thing was i wasn't unhappy like i use to be instead i felt at peace. I knew that God has He's plans for me. I'm wanted in God's kingdom in demand! Haha... What i mean is God is going to use me for greater purpose with a greater testimony to share with everyone i know...

I'm really happy now... God has reveal himself to me so much that i never knew b4. Wanna take this time to really thank some ppl...

First, i wanna thank CLARICE!!! Haha... thank you sis, u're really great. Always there listening to me, telling me when u sense something wrong. I'm really thankful God put u in my life. I guess without u by my side, i think the story would be different... maybe u won't be able to hear from me again. Than i would like to thank my CG COPYCATS! U guys rock! Though i didn't really share with u guys what i felt during my saddest moments, but i'm glad u guys were there to share my JOY with me! AMEN! Next would like to thank Kyra and of course Kiaros. I mean u guys really encourage me alot. How u guys worshipped the Lord with ur gifts. N the faithfullness u guys have when it comes to dance... Next would like to thank the Agape Messengers ( Tim, Guoren, Gideon, Merissa, Clarice, Steven, Sylvia, Galvin and Sue). It was all of u when i came clean n share my honest feelings. Thanks for the support u guys gave me... n of course all the fun we had b4, during n after, will always remember it. After that would like to thank Matt n Rebecca. Thanks for encouraging me n allowing me to share with u and the prayers u both prayed for us. The whole of web, those whom i have no mention u know how... ( nicole, jan, xavier, raymond, eunice, euphemia, mingxuan, jon q, themis, muntat, kel, denis, peter... alot alot more...) U guys gave me lots of precious memories... To class 1x, well, i'm happy i got to know u all. Hope the new term will bring in more happiness n joy to ur hearts. My God brothers... I LOVE U ALL!!! Haha... i mean u guys r the one whom i can really talk to n when i'm really down u guys really listen to me... so thank you thank you... To Phileo, Hosea, i'm thankful i got to know u guys a little better this year. Ur journey as a dancer for our Lord really encourages me. Continue to dance for Him!

I still have a very long list down... but there's two more names i gotta say... 1, my bro... Thanks Kor. I know u've been praying for me all these while. I'm really really thankful that u're my bro... i mean so nice n caring... so sorry for those times when i've disappoint u in anyways or make u unhappy... But u're the best bro anyone could ever have. And of coure, my Lord God, Jesus Christ! Thank You Lord for this year, for everything that had happened throughout and thank you for allowing me to live to see all these happen. May all glory n honour goes to Jesus!!! MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!!!!!!!!!